Tuesday, September 20, 2016

How I Really Feel About My Sisters Promotion

It's been about two months since Amanda was promoted. I've had mixed feelings on this since I first heard it was a possibility. I feel like I can't talk to her about it, but I needed to express my feelings somehow. What better place than here?

I started working for this company in January. When I was hired on, it was a temp-to-hire. There were no guarantees of a permanent position at the end, but I was hopeful. In May I was brought into a meeting with the training class after mine and hired on with the company, but still as a temp. The fact that the only other person left in my training class wasn't there was a huge red flag for me.

At this point, Amanda was talking to the team lead and was told that they were looking to promote her. There were a few things preventing them from doing it, one of which was me. The problem was, if Amanda got promoted, I would have to be moved or fired. I was definitely not a fan of the second option, but the first wasn't really enticing either.

I loved my job in customer service. It was fulfilling and had room for growth. I didn't dread going in to work, I didn't want to take days off. It's the only time in my life that I felt that way. But, I didn't get the option to stay. I was brought in to talk to the manager in July and they asked me if I would like to switch to a temporary position working with the data management department. I already knew about it, because of Amanda, but I said yes. It was that or be fired.

Here we are in September and I have been doing the data cleanup for our new system since the first week of August. It's not the worst job I've ever had, that will hands down always be Bob's, and then in second Dunkin Donuts. But I'm not happy either.

I've hit a stalemate. I'm not going to make any more money than I do now, I'm not even in an official department, and it's more confusing than ever. I'm told that I can't work in customer service because of Amanda, but then they pulled me in to work with them for two days in August because they were "short on people." I also have to get approval not only from the data management supervisor, but also the contact center supervisor for time off. This is even more confusing.

I have no upward momentum, I don't even have a department so how can I advance? Also, I'm the only one left that is a temp. Remember the guy from my training class that wasn't at the meeting? That's because they had already made him permanent. Back in May. Before they "officially" started talking about Amanda's promotion. And now anyone left in customer service from after my class is also permanent.

The worst part is that they need me, or someone. Amanda says something about being short at least two people at least two to three times a week. My main urge is to just ask her to shut the hell up. I don't want to hear about how they need people when I'm sitting on the other side of the room wishing I was in that department. I've been told by all of the upper management AND HR that I am a great employee and that I did really well. I know they need me, I know I would do well because I was already doing well.

My honest thoughts about her promotion is that, selfishly, I wish she hadn't been offered it. Especially when she complains about it. She gets to complain about something she wanted and has been working towards while I sit here contemplating my next move. I am also anxiously awaiting the day they tell me they don't need me anymore. I know it's inevitable, and this isn't just pessimism. I've been told that this won't last forever. I will need to find another position, either within the company, or not.

Being a temp in the contact center meant I had a clear goal: work towards being so essential they don't want to let me go. And considering we've had so many people leave, that were permanent, I would have been hired on permanently. I don't have a doubt about that. But being a temp, doing this work that will definitely end, sooner rather than later, has me on edge.

I need to save money, because I need to get a car. As soon as I have a car, I'm really going to have to start looking for another job. I can't keep doing this. I don't think it's fair to me. I'm proud of Amanda for being promoted, and if the circumstances were different I would be over the moon for her. But I can't stand hearing her bitch about how busy it is, or how they need people when I'm sitting here jumping up and down screaming "me, me, pick me!" and being ignored.



Have you ever experienced something like this? Do you think I'm incredibly selfish? Do you understand where I'm coming from? Let's chat in the comments below!














2 comments:

  1. Oh wow, I'm really sorry that you're having to deal with this. That must be so frustrating and I can see why you're upset. Are there any other departments you can express interest in?

    Corinne x
    www.skinnedcartree.com

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    1. I look at all of the postings they put up for openings and I either don't qualify, or don't want it. And I can't switch to something I don't like just to avoid being let go. It makes more sense to get a car, and then look for another job and move on.

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