Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Stepping Out Of My Comfort Zone

Hello beautiful people! I'm writing this the day after I did something I don't normally do. I'm also slightly hung over and very tired! But what I did last night is what I want to talk about. There's some back story, but essentially I stepped out of my comfort zone, and I had a lot of fun doing it.

Anyone who has read my blog for a little while knows I have two jobs. I just passed my one year anniversary at my full time job on the 19th. That job does an annual work party, usually considered a gala but this year it was a little more low key and we just called it a soiree.

Last year, because I had just started, I wasn't able to go. We aren't allowed a plus one, it's just for employees of the company. Amanda went last year and said she had fun, but she wasn't excited to go this year. I was originally not going to go at all, especially considering I had work the next day.

Until our boss told Amanda that because she's a team lead she "should really go." Amanda is my ride. Our job is about halfway between our house and where the party was. It would have made no sense for Amanda to drop me off at home then go all the way back past our office to the party. So I was suckered into going.

To say I wasn't happy would be an understatement. I have severe social anxiety. I'm not good in crowds, especially a crowd of people I know and work with. Add to that the fact that the few people at work I consider a "friend" weren't going, and I was dreading that night.

But I had no real choice, so I went. We brought our outfits to work with us to change into. It's a good thing, too, because Amanda spilled her lunch on her shirt, lol. We all came in at 830 so we could leave at 5 and have time to get ready. The party started at 7 in Hartford.

We changed, most of us did or touched up our makeup, and we drove up to the state capital. We had the other team lead and one of the supervisors following us up, even though we'd never been there and it was a pretty straight shot on the highway until you go to Hartford. We also got there about a half hour early.

But when we got there we were given two drink tickets. I used one for a vodka sprite, and the call center manager bought us (our table, not everyone there) a drink so I had another vodka sprite. I limited myself to two drinks because I was working the next day. We were also planning on leaving at about 9pm. That didn't happen. I didn't get home until after midnight. I even took pictures in the photo booth! One of the photos looks different because I took a picture of it with my phone and the other Amanda had texted to her. I wish both had been texted, but oh well.

The greatest part is that I had fun. Like a lot of fun. We had a live band, and even though I don't dance, I sang along to the songs I knew (which was most of them) and spent time with the people I did know from work. That included watching my manager act a fool (I say this lovingly, lol) on the dance floor. Amanda danced, I watched my friends dance. It was a great night.

I'm really glad I went, and I'm bummed that I won't be there next year. (Long story). I can't believe I almost didn't go! Like even up til Thursday I was trying to get a work friend to switch with me. I'm glad she refused, because I would have just been home doing nothing otherwise.

This is something I've been working on for a while. I need to continuously step outside my comfort zone because when I do, I usually don't regret it. Parties are definitely not something I'll be doing every week, but occasionally they're fun.

Do you have social anxiety? Are parties not your thing? Any tips for me to get better at parties? Let's chat!


  1. I am glad you went and had fun. I have horrible social anxiety, it takes me hours to work up the courage to go grocery shopping most times. I just dont like crowds, hah.

    1. Crowds are not fun! I'm not a fan of being out in public much :/ but I'm glad I went because I did have fun :)